Merry Christmas!!! I hope everyone is having a wonderful day! I deliberated about waiting to post but cancer doesn't take a holiday. We spent the better part of yesterday at the doctors office. We went in to get the results of the CT from Wednesday. They weren't good. It appears that the lessions in the lungs have gotten bigger which indiciates they are cancer. And there appears to be some "caking" in the abdomin which means the cancer has spread to his stomach. His bilirubin is up to 13 and his belly is horribly distended. They tried to get him into a surgeon to relieve the swelling and a gastroenterologist to take a look at his liver but that's not easy to do over the holidays. We're suppose to go to Chicago tomorrow but I'm not sure Michael will be able to make it. If he's on his feet at all, the fluid from his belly goes right to his feet and ankles. The doctor seems to think Michael quit responding to treatment a few weeks ago...even though his tumor markers keep going down. He believes that Michael's liver is shutting down...so of course he felt the need to discuss a DNR with Michael. He wanted to admit him to the hospital but that obviously didn't happen. It was a LONG day!

So....my approach is to try and pretend like yesterday didn't happen! Just kidding!! I'm going to search high a low on Monday to find a surgeon to remove the fluid in Michael's belly next week. He is very uncomfortable. We go to Freodtert on the Jan 7 which I am going to see if we can move up but I'm skeptical because of the holiday. I'm praying that all the pressure from the fluid is preventing his liver from functioning properly. Yes, I'm grasping at straws but it's all I have right now.