I'm not sure where to begin....I took Michael to the ER at Froedtert Monday morning about 9 AM and they gave him a few pushes of dilaudid right away. Due to his complicated situation, they admitted him to the hospital which is what I thought they would do. We saw some of the members from the cancer team and they did a CT scan around 8 PM. They wanted to do some scans before they went any further. They also hooked up a pump so he could be in control of the pain medication. By Tuesday morning all Michael could do was push the "pain button" and sleep. He couldn't even carry on a conversation. It made for a long day.

Finally about 2 PM, the cancer team came in to give us the results of the scan. They explained that the cancer in Michael's liver had gotten worse and that there was definite cancer in his lungs. The problems he's having is from his liver shutting down. They are going to put in a catheter tomorrow morning so that we can drain the fluid from his belly everyday so that it doesn't build up again. The bottom line is they are just going to treat his symptoms and make him as comfortable as possible. There was some talk about hospice but we weren't quite ready for that yet. I agreed to let the people from hospice come to check the catheter and we'll go from there.

I'm so heart broken. I feel like all the crap he's been through with chemo has been for nothing. He has done everything they have thrown at him and nothing has worked. I'm so sad and it's so hard for me to share this news with everyone. They didn't give us any sort of time frame, and I didn't ask. So I'll bring him home tomorrow and hope for the best. I know there are a lot of you that want to see him but I'm not sure how he'll feel when we get home. I'll keep you posted on his condition.