My head tells me that I need to get out, see my friends, go to work and do normal things but honestly....I just want to curl up in a ball and do nothing for a very long time. I know I'm suppose to try and rebuild my life but for the last 21 years, my life has revolved around Michael and for the last 5 months, my life has been consumed with taking care of Michael. I am so completely and utterly lost.