I'm at a loss for words....the tears are streaming down my face as I type. The changes Michael has gone through over the last few days have been....devestating...to say the least. I had hoped that we would see some improvement after the surgery and getting home but that hasn't been the case. He isn't eating much and stays in bed most of the time. Today, he wasn't very lucid. He goes in and out of reality. The nurse says it's a combination of the drugs, the disease and he may even be dreaming a bit. It is difficult to have a conversation with him.

Jeff & Julie Neises and Steve Locken have been here for a few days to see Michael and help me finish moving things out of the Lake House. They have been an enormous help and I never could have done it without them. It will be hard for me to express how much their time here has meant to me.

My mom and sister are coming Tuesday. I miss them very much and they will be able to help me with things.

I know many of you would like to see Michael but I also know that he would not want people to see him in this state. If you could just imagine yourself having the flu and how bad you feel.....now just multiply that times 1000.